In order for me to do better, I have to do better for myself. That’s one of the obstacles we face when living with this “inconvenience” called sarcoidosis. One day, we’re feeling good and like our old selves. The next, we’re doing the opposite of what our healing requires.
It’s a delicate tango we live with, but over the years it becomes more of a structured waltz requiring discipline, patience, and self-deprecating humor. And I’m hilarious!
This week, at the suggestion of my primary pulmonologist, I reached out to another hospital to discuss my pulmonary sarcoidosis. I was frightened. I’m not sure if I was afraid to make the initial contact or hear their response. Whatever the case, I’m proud of myself for taking that first step.
I finally got the nerve to reach out, and it wasn’t as bad as I expected. The hospital representative took down my information and said the hospital would need my medical records upon evaluation.
That afternoon, I went out to make copies, only to have the customer service person mix up the order of my paperwork. Ugh, this can’t be happening now! I collected my paperwork and headed home — $4.45 in the hole.
The next day, I was preparing to fax my paperwork to the new lung center when the coordinator called me. I started laughing, and told her I was about to fax the paperwork to them. She laughed, and said I didn’t need to because my pulmonologist sent everything over. I was relieved they didn’t waste any time reaching out to me.
I remained on the phone to answer some additional questions. She mentioned I may have to repeat some of the tests I’d taken earlier this year. I thought about all the blood tests I did in January. Talk about an awakening moment.
We ended our call, and I sat at my desk for a moment to digest everything we had talked about. I became nervous and uneasy. I haven’t discussed my medical issues with anyone outside of my medical team and my close circle of family and friends. Maybe I should view this as an opportunity to grow my medical team. Who knows? I needed to calm down and not overthink it.
As I’ve mentioned previously, you need a solid medical team on your side. I’ve built a solid team, and I’m open to their suggestions and advice. On the flip side, they trust me, my concerns, and my knowledge of my body. If they collectively think I should pursue other opinions and other resources, I shouldn’t be that concerned.
As my lead doctor once told me, “They may have had patients like you and can offer other treatments that could prove beneficial to your improvement.”
I initially felt like they were abandoning me, but that was not the case.
I’ve always struggled when others faced health problems, including my mom, whose lifelong health issues became more serious as she grew older. When she had open-heart surgery, I was all out of sorts. This strong, humble, and tireless woman who took care of my brother and me as a single parent was reduced to relying on others for help. That’s my biggest fear: losing my independence and relying on others to care for me.
Like my mother, I continue to keep doing things for myself because I’m living on my terms while acknowledging my limitations. You gotta keep moving forward.
Chronic health issues are not faults that befall us; they’re life adjustments that have a way of making us stronger. When you reflect on what you’ve been through and how far you’ve come, you can handle almost anything that gets thrown your way.
The more opinions and suggestions regarding my health, the better. I’ve been told my case is atypical. Woo-wee, I am special! Hopefully, I’m so special that I can help others like me, and maybe some who aren’t like me. In the end, if others can help me and I can help others, then this adventure was worth the trip.
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