A Therapist Could Have Brought More Peace to My Hospitalization

A Therapist Could Have Brought More Peace to My Hospitalization
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Recently, I thought about my past hospitalizations and how isolated I felt. I guess the events over the past three months with social distancing had me feeling isolated … again. I thought about the two months I spent in the lung center at one of our hospitals in Philly to treat my first spontaneous pneumothorax, caused by pulmonary sarcoidosis.

Initially, the doctors thought I would be hospitalized for about a week or so. They thought that my lung would start to heal itself, which is common with spontaneous pneumothorax. Frustratingly, that wasn’t my case because my lungs were in pretty bad shape to begin with. During that time, I had a chest tube placed to inflate the lung and help me breathe. According to doctors, I was making progress and we had conversations about going home. That all changed rather quickly. I was taking my daily walk with the physical therapist when I suffered another spontaneous pneumothorax — this was a big setback for me.

After that episode, another chest tube was put in place so now I had two. Over the next few days, I could sense the isolation setting in. Being alone and watching television for most of the day became my routine. I started worrying and thinking, “How long am I going to be in here?” The days became weeks, and I started thinking, “Am I ever going to get better?”

My family came to visit almost every day. Some friends and other family members routinely called to check on me. Those welcomed gestures really helped, although I didn’t hear from several of my close friends. I started feeling vulnerable.

Days turned into weeks … and those weeks turned into months. Every day I made little progress. The longer I stayed, the more of a challenge it was to remain focused and optimistic. It’s not easy when you’re tethered to oxygen while trying to navigate two chest tubes, which the nurses called “pocketbooks.” I can say from experience that lengthy hospital stays cause anxiety.

Sarcoidosis causes anxiety, too.

What I would’ve liked to have happened.

I wish I had a mental health professional to talk to about the isolation of being hospitalized. Albeit, I had several nurses and a respiratory therapist who were wonderful to talk to because they work with lung patients every day. It was easy for them to explain what was happening to me; moreover, they could tell me what to expect during my rehabilitation.

I also spoke a few times with a hospital social worker. Our conversations were usually about my medicinal needs, my oxygen provider, equipment needs, and whether I felt safe in my home with my family. I also had a few conversations with the dietician about nutritional needs.

Although everyone involved in my healthcare was equally important as the next, I do wish I could’ve talked to a therapist while there.

I had both of my spontaneous pneumothorax during the summer months, so every year since, I’ve experienced a lot of anxiety during those months. The summers of 2017 and 2018 were spent in the hospital, so I definitely think warm weather is a trigger. I’ve gotten better about handling that anxiety, but I think a therapist could’ve helped me to overcome that issue earlier.

A therapist also could’ve helped me understand that my life would change because of my health. Maybe they could’ve helped me understand that some people would treat me differently. I’m sure one thing they could’ve helped me understand is that none of this is my fault. I still have a lot of life to live.

Time to move on!

Eventually, I did speak to a therapist in the weeks following my release. I didn’t know at the time that it was a benefit of my wife’s health insurance. We talked about some of my concerns, and she was helpful in explaining that my current health issues with sarcoidosis weren’t my fault; it’s not personal, I guess it’s just the luck of the draw.

The therapist mentioned that I had been through a lot in a short period. At that moment it registered with me that I had been through a lot. I remember the nurse practitioner saying the same thing to me, which made me pause and reflect on everything I had experienced.

The hardest part of living with a chronic illness is staying motivated to move on. You have to keep moving forward because you still have a lot of life to live. It’s easy to mentally remain in the past, the hard part is confronting your fears and moving on. Get out of your comfort zone. The best life is ahead of you.

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Charlton is an independent multimedia/video producer and video editor located in the Philadelphia, PA area. He has worked over a combined 30 plus years in advertising, legal education, and as an independent creative services provider. When he’s not creating at his desk or behind his camera, he’s in the kitchen cooking and is also known as a serious homebrewer. He recently completed the Culinary RX Certification program from Rouxbe Online Culinary School specializing in plant-based nutrition, and he has his food protection certification. With 2 professional bbq smoker’s in his yard, Charlton is also known as a skilled pit-master. He’s also appreciated as a jazz aficionado.
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Charlton is an independent multimedia/video producer and video editor located in the Philadelphia, PA area. He has worked over a combined 30 plus years in advertising, legal education, and as an independent creative services provider. When he’s not creating at his desk or behind his camera, he’s in the kitchen cooking and is also known as a serious homebrewer. He recently completed the Culinary RX Certification program from Rouxbe Online Culinary School specializing in plant-based nutrition, and he has his food protection certification. With 2 professional bbq smoker’s in his yard, Charlton is also known as a skilled pit-master. He’s also appreciated as a jazz aficionado.
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3 comments

  1. Annie Leeks says:

    Hello Mr.Harris thanks for your brave messaging.
    I have endured Sarcoidosis for over 40 plus years.
    I turned 60 in April and I bought a red convertible Mercedes to celebrate the blessing of being able to look back over my years of pain and tears with this disease and say (Thank God) I’m here.
    We spend so much time thinking about dying and worrying about the unknown until we forget to live.
    Anxiety is a real part of Sarcoidosis, over the years I too had to learn how to really know my body, and to seek professional help when I feel overwhelmed.
    And when all else fails when my anxiety is high I take a long country ride to nowhere!

  2. Annie Leeks says:

    Hello Mr.Harris thanks for your brave messaging.
    I have endured Sarcoidosis for over 40 plus years.
    I turned 60 in April and I bought a red convertible Mercedes to celebrate the blessing of being able to look back over my years of pain and tears with this disease and say (Thank God) I’m here.
    We spend so much time thinking about dying and worrying about the unknown until we forget to live.
    Anxiety is a real part of Sarcoidosis, over the years I too had to learn how to really know my body, and to seek professional help when I feel overwhelmed.
    And when all else fails when my anxiety is high I take a long country ride to nowhere!

    • Charlton Harris says:

      Hi Annie-Thanks so much for reading my column.
      I’ve been living with sarcoidosis since 2003, and I’ve reached the point you have in that I’m going to start celebrating more of the blessings of another day. A few days ago I purchased a scratch-off lottery ticket and won $500! I used part of the win to have fun with my family, and the other part for car repairs.
      You’re so right is stating that we should all celebrate the blessings of a new day, and I’m starting to celebrate more . . . yesterday! lol

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