A Leap of Faith and a New Attitude

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Last week, I took a leap of faith, and it’s given me a new outlook on things.

I had taken my car to the dealership for service. It turns out that it needed a whole lot more than an oil change; the mechanic told me that getting a new car might be a better way to spend my money than trying to have all the repairs done on the one I was driving.

I’ve been out of work since 2016, the year before I was forced to start paying closer attention to my health issues. When I was working, I knew I had pulmonary sarcoidosis, but it remained in the background until about three years ago.

I’ve been able to make ends meet by drawing from my retirement savings, but not having a job worried me. Nothing was coming my way, and that empty feeling made me feel like a failure. I began to worry that my health would affect my ability to get a job.

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But through it all, I’ve managed to keep my cool. Even amid mounting health, family, and financial issues, I have stayed calm. I’m surprised my post-traumatic stress disorder didn’t kick in. Instead, I felt like I was taking a little bit of a timeout to better assess what it was I was dealing with, and how I could somehow make things better.

And then — my car.

The next day, I went to the bank with all of the apprehension a man could carry on his shoulders. The night before, I had convinced my wife that we needed to put the home improvement loan we had been approved for on hold. A car was more important. I needed to be able to get to my doctor appointments.

But then, some sunshine. At the bank, I was told my credit rating was excellent; I could get a loan for a new car at a good rate. I felt like somebody again. Somebody important. For three years, I had been focused on keeping things from getting worse, focused only on the negative.

But now I was looking at an opportunity. I took the leap.

Actually being able to secure a loan for a new car at a good rate has been the motivation I needed to put myself back in the game, to start looking for work again. Who knew that the thing that kept me up at night worrying would be the thing to motivate me to get back in the game?

A long time ago, I was told, “There’s no player like a mortgage payer!” In other words, if you’re not paying your own way, you’re living by someone else’s dream. It’s about time I got motivated again. Putting myself out there has made me feel accountable, and this little victory has made me feel like there are still more out there waiting for me.

There’s still some roar under this hood of mine. The lesson? Reclaim your spirit, claim your life, and own your adventure.

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Paul Varadi avatar

Paul Varadi

Great message!
As Yogi Berra the former baseball player once said, "90% of the game is half-mental."
We are each in control of the attitude we take in dealing with our issues and in placing our faith in God."
Your story is a good reminder. Thanks.

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Charlton Harris avatar

Charlton Harris

Thank you, Paul. I couldn't agree with you more or have said it any better!
-C-

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DebbraP avatar

DebbraP

Charlton, Congrats on the new car! Even more importantly, congrats on finding the way to take charge of your life again.

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Marsha Paulsen Peters avatar

Marsha Paulsen Peters

Thank you, Charlton for this missive! I needed it. Amen. -- mapp in CT

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Charlton Harris avatar

Charlton Harris

Thanks for reading Marsha-
God Bless!
-C-

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Adam from Australia avatar

Adam from Australia

Hi Charlton, thanks for another positive article. So have you decided yet on what car to get? Hybrid or electric if you can to save on gas costs, also get one that has a really good service contract so that you don't have to find funds for that just when you least expect it. I'm happy for you that you have been able to manage so well in such challenging times, hopefully you will continue to inspire many others to do the same. Best wishes to you and your family from all of us in Australia, happy motoring!

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Charlton Harris avatar

Charlton Harris

Thanks, Adam, I haven't decided yet. All I know is that it'll be an SUV. . . wish me luck!
-C-

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